Contradict

Sometimes I like being in the midst of a crowd,
then other times I prefer solitude.

Usually I smile at the sight of sunlight,
yet often I relish the sound of rain tapping on the rooftop.

I love when life takes a busy turn,
but I also enjoy the quiet, lazy days.

Noise—children playing, the TV going, music blaring, people chattering—thrills me,
yet silence comforts me.

I adore lyrical music,
and instrumental.

I’m an extrovert,
but have introvert tendencies.

I really dislike touching,
but I hug everybody.

I love the outdoors,
but I. . .hate the outdoors.

I’m extremely organized,
in a chaotic way.

I’m well known for being very talkative and loud,
I’m notorious for being exceedingly quiet.

I can act like a 4 year old,
or a 93 year old.

Some days, I’m really not sure who I am. My personality, taste, interests is so contradictory I feel as though I break the universe sometimes. I seem to have strange opinions on things, or more like two contradictory opinions on the same thing. I couldn’t really tell you who I am because I contradict myself in almost every area of my life. And yet I’m a pretty consistent person. See? Contradictory!

Sometimes, this fact frustrates me. Why can’t I just be one thing or the other? Why both? It’s weird and confusing. Who AM I?

You know who I am? I’m a daughter of the King. God created me to fulfill His purposes. I am who I am because He made me that way. I’m learning to embrace my peculiar personality (or shall I call it personalities?). In fact, it’s actually rather convenient seeing both sides to almost everything in life. I tend to be the mediator when arguments arouse between my friends or family, because usually I understand each person’s opinions. I can go watch The Avengers with my brother and turn around and watch a Disney princess movie with my sister. I’m content with laying around watching TV all day with one person or go romping through the woods with another.

There’s no rule that claims I have to be one particular thing. I enjoy exploring all the different aspects of life. Being two things at once. Delighting in all of God’s creations.

As long as I’m solid and constant in embracing HIS love, being a little mismatched is okay with me.